Sometimes words fail me. Sometimes the construct of language is not sophisticated enough to adequately express the energetic experience of the soul. Today is the new moon in Leo, the beginning of a new lunar cycle of self expression, vibrancy, vitality and presence. Your presence. My presence. Being the fullest expression of ourselves we can be. Sounds easy, right? There is also a deeply unsettled energy in the cosmos, a rendering of the fabric of that which has been known as that which is to be takes shape. This shape is neither fully formed nor fully determined, and is evolving along with the Collective. Our evolution in consciousness shapes the cosmos, as the cosmos shapes our evolution in consciousness. There is an enormous pressure, like the diamond in the crucible, that I experience today - the pressure of the collective birth canal. It is especially jarring to be living my daily human life experiencing this energetic activity on a physical level, while noticing in my physical world reality that many are unaware of it at all, or are aware and trying to capitalize, for their own gain, on the epic transformation of humanity that is underway as I type these words. I’ve been frustrated of late with the selling of spirituality, with the barrage of marketing of “authentic self” and “spirit led” whatnot. It is really triggering, which I recognize and continue to explore within my consciousness why this is. Honestly, there is something disgusting to me about profaning the sacred. In my life, the exploration of and expression as my Authentic Self has been a sacred journey, a pilgrimage to my holy land, to a deep and abiding relationship with my soul, living equally in my humanity and my divinity. I want to live in a world where every being has the experience of their full self expression, their soul expression. And still I cringe at every meme and sales call to action that pays lip service to the profound work of Being Who You Are. The authentic self is not a fancy coat you buy and drape over yourself, declaring to the world “here I am, I’m authentic now”. Rather it is a shedding of every layer of ego and and every idea you have about who you need to be in the world, every role you play, every identification with a thing or job or relationship or person that “makes” you you, and leaving all of those concepts and constructs on the floor as you step out of the limitations of need and want and into the vast expanse of being exactly who you are, unfettered, unbound, and ultimately undefined. Like the un-nameable energetic swirling in the cosmos, this uncategorized You is the Self required to weave the new tapestry of humanity into being. To me, that is Sacred. That Is Holy. And that cannot be sold via a meme or FOMO call to action. That is a choice to Be. It is the choice I make daily, with varying degrees of success. Do I believe there are skilled teachers and guides and mentors available to support this revelation into Self - yes. I’m one of them. Do I think earning a prosperous living while being a spiritual teacher and remaining in integrity is possible - absolutely. Do I think there are far too many people selling the idea of spirituality because it is the latest trend and an untapped market - oh hell yes. So be discerning. If someone tells you they have a solution, a package or program that if you just follow it everything will miraculously change in your life - walk away. You don’t need a guru. Find a guide who sees you, who witnesses you, and begin your own pilgrimage to Soul. Blessed be.
