The Valor of Vulnerability
How exactly do I stop running in place? I feel like I’ve spent a lifetime running, but was it toward or away from something? Thirty years learning and seeking and healing. Therapy, coaching, business development programs, obtaining certifications and a masters degree, all to find the outward expression of my Soul. Decades of doing “the work”. Gaining expertise in the evolution of consciousness, quietly mentoring friends and colleagues in living in alignment with their soul’s calling, to live in the full expression of Who They Are.
My search for a business model that would accommodate the nature of my gifts, that would help me to commodify my talents, has left me feeling empty. It’s ironic, given that selling spiritual growth and spirituality has become such a burgeoning market over the past few years. And so much of what I see out there in the collective is quick fix bypassing. I understand that we need to start somewhere, and memes and sound bytes are the entryway, but I can’t live in the shallows. I can’t breathe there. I am a deep sea creature, exploring the depths and mystery from the deepest recesses of the psyche. It is where I am most comfortable, in the discomfort of discovery. Where I am most uncomfortable is in the bullshit of social media, the “live your best life” platitudes that offer zero by way of how the hell to do that. And that leaves me in a conundrum. How do I let people know what I do while avoiding the cesspool of toxicity that is social media? How do I maintain my integrity in a paradigm that is ever more surface level? Up until now, I’ve been sitting out the game. When people ask me what I do, I answer with a truth - I run a construction company specializing in white glove custom home building and renovations. Because that has been a lot safer for me than The Truth, which is that I see the scope of your soul, its lineage, and its potential, and I act as a midwife to birth that potential into physical world reality. In essence, I am a Dream Midwife. I have a unique ability to recognize what your soul seeks, and encourage it to come into full expression. The way that I do this depends entirely on you, on where you are in your own consciousness, and on your willingness to dive deep to bring your mind, heart, and soul into harmony.
You already have the answers. As do I. I know how to stop running in place. It is not by doing the same thing again, expecting a different outcome. We all know what that defines. It is by living into my own courage, my own willingness to be seen in the fullness of Who I Am. It is accepting that I both have all the answers inside of me and that I know absolutely nothing. It is the surrender of the mental constructs I’ve held in place to keep me in the illusion of safety. It is the faith to put one foot in front of the other, knowing that I’ll land where I need to be.
It is the valor of vulnerability.
